Since getting our positive news I realise I owe a few people an apology.
To those of you who are still waiting on your positive news I am sorry. I know it hurts even if just a moment reading others positive news but I hope like I did you take some solace in the fact there are positive endings to this journey even after multiple failures.
To the ladies who blogged of struggling to be excited about their pregnancy I am sorry. There were moments when I thought, just enjoy it you have what we are all looking for! I now understand your struggle, this journey does not end with a positive pregnancy test, far from it.
It has now been 2.5 weeks since our BFP and I have continued to spot, it does seem to be reducing so fingers crosses that it will completely stop shortly. My viability scan is next Wednesday so I am on countdown to that but am also terrified of the possibility that it could be the end of our journey. They say knowledge is power but in some cases it can be the root of fear. I know so many lovely ladies in the blogging community who have come this far only to have their hopes dashed and it terrifies me I might be in the same boat. Part of me wishes I was blissfully unaware of the potential outcomes and could relax and enjoy being pregnant but then again the fall could then be all the harder. I do have moments of joy and excitement, moments when I imagine our dreams becoming a reality.
Lastly apologies to you the reader I know this is a bit of a Debbie Downer post but this blog is my release and the way I can get all my emotions down and work through them.
Love and baby dust to all.